To grow older - how does it feel anyway? When is one old? It probably begins in secrecy. One can anticipate it but it is as if around the corner, it peeks in from time to time to get acquainted. It can disappear, sometimes completely out of site. But suddenly it is there at the door again and steps right in. It does not want to be swept under the rug or shown to the guest room, but it wants to be embraced in ones arms. It at times just sticks to ones skin. It hinders ones movement and puts the brakes to many of ones functions. Now one has to resist and not give in too much. One has to keep as many balls in the air as possible, as long as it is meaningful. The physical abilities begin to show weaknesses but the mental feels stable and calm and understands how to create new possibilities.